Obsession

     I sit there everyday, Just watching. She's never noticed me before, but then again, why should she? The day goes by, we have few classes together. Every time i see her, I watch. At lunch she laughs, in math she sleeps. She never notices, and I never speak. At the end of the day, I go home, and sleep, wake up, eat dinner then sleep some more.
     I have some friends, they all know what I do. "Why won't she notice, why can't she see?" I say.
     "She's just a popular, get over her. They're all pretty faces and no brains anyway," one of my friends, Susy, replies.
     "Yeah, come on, they're much better people than her anyway," another friend, David, says.
      No I think to myself, there is no one better.
    "Hey, Lover-boy, you still in there?" Susy says as she waves her hand in front of my face.
     "Huh? yeah," I return.
    "Come on, Lunch is almost over, let's go," David says.
    "Hang on, I think I'm finally going to make myself noticed," I say.
    "Oh god, just be quick," Susy says.
    I walk over to her table, she doesn't notice, but her friends do.  "Hey, you're that one kid, the only one in our English with perfect scores," the one on the left says.
     "Uh, yeah, that is me." I reply.
     "You wanna give us some help here?"
     "Umm, I, uh, c.. came over here to ask M...Ma...Mary if she'd l.. like to go to a movie,"
     "A movie? Ha, why would someone like me go to a movie with someone like you? You're a freak," Mary responds.
     I snap. "WHY? BECAUSE I LOVE YOU, SEE? LOOK WHAT I DID JUST FOR YOU!" I show her my arms, her name carved into them so many times, with the newest one still bleeding. "SEE? DON'T YOU LOVE ME TOO?" She looks at me with a mix of amazement and fear. "WELL? AREN'T YOU GOING TO TELL ME YOU LOVE ME?" She screams. Instantly, the administration is there. They take me in to the Office, call my parents, suspend me, recommend a therapist, and then I'm off to home. The ride is silent.
     Once home, I go straight to my room. There, housed in a brilliant chest, a knife. The same Knife i used so many times for her name. The knife that will end my life.
"Notice Me."